impromptu

 If a sense of reality knocked at the half lit room of your mind 

out of nowhere, if you came to understand so that it all clicked at once,

at the snap of a finger, if you felt disgusted by your very own self,

if you had to believe that you did what you never thought you would, if you could no longer feel like "you"

if your very existence itself made your blood boil in rage, would you still be willing to give yourself another chance?

~h.